Wisdom.....

This post is about teeth, a subject I do not care for in the least. But I feel like a big ol ding dong and wanted to write it down, I have no idea why.....

 Over a year ago I went to the dentist for my regular cleaning and I mentioned I thought my wisdom teeth were coming in and wanted to know what I should do about them. They took x-rays and referred me to a oral surgeon. I went for my consult but he was backed up in a surgery and couldn't see me at that time so I rescheduled. My rescheduled date was the day of Brent's accident last December so needless say I didn't make it. I didn't reschedule because I'm irresponsible like that...

Well I go for my regular check-ups though out this year and they tell me I need to get with the oral surgeon and get all this taken care of. Days go by and I never think about it. I'm honestly terrified of surgery and I don't want to waste my days off in a dentist office. Ick!

This all leads me to about Wednesday I wake up and the left side of my mouth feels funny I didn't think much of it. Yesterday I wake up and realize my bottom left wisdom tooth has almost completely popped though! Today I wake up and look in the back of my mouth and my new tooth has made my old tooth shift! I am freaking out to say the least. I am mad at myself and scared of what permanent damage this may do!

I have an appointment Wednesday to see my dentist I'm praying he can just pull it with some local numbing so I can just get it out soon if not I may be on the fast track for some icky surgery!

Ugh! This year has not been good to me!

Holiday weekend in Pictures

I didn't take really any pictures on Thanksgiving we were so busy I just never thought about it. I hate that.

But we did have a really good one! We had Thanksgiving lunch with Brent's side of the fam and then came home and made up dinner for my side. It was a lot of work but so much fun. I love having people over, hanging out and eating.

Friday after Thanksgiving I had to work but the boys stayed home and napped and watched football. That night Luke went to Pawpas and Brent and I got a little Christmas shopping date night! We went to eat then to a few stores before heading to pick Luke up. When we got there they were watching old home movies of Brent and his sister at Christmas, it was so cool to watch I could've stayed all night. Lucas was not ready to come home and cried and begged to stay the night. So we let him :)

Saturday we stayed around the house and put up Christmas stuff, the tree and the outside lights. We ate an early dinner and watched a movie. Fun night in.

Sunday I stayed home and worked on more Christmas decorating and Brent worked on his Mustang. For dinner everyone met a Brent's dads house for tacos. We ate way to much and stayed way to late but had so much fun.

Then it was back to work Monday!

Brent's birthday is Thursday so we have another fun weekend ahead of us! SO loving this time of year!

Happy Thanksgiving!

I never got around to doing the 30 days of thanks on fb but I have so much to be thankful for today! I wanted to write a short list to help me reflect.

I am thankful for my health.

I am thankful for Brent and Lucas.

I am thankful for knowing and seeing God's power.

I am thankful for good family and friends.

I am thankful for our jobs.

I am thankful for our homes and warm beds.

I am thankful for food on our table.

I am thankful for all the little things that I tend to not see everyday.

Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours!



Tuesday Tidbits!

• I have SO much to be thankful for this time of year, today the Dr. called me and my test I had done on Monday came back normal! I was so relieved to hear that news. I hoping to get in to do a hormone test soon so we will see how that turns out. IF that turns out normal then that will be all the testing I want to do right now.

• I haven't worn any 'real' pants in weeks, months maybe. I wear leggings almost every day except when I'm at home then I wear jammie pants ;) I honestly can't even stand the thought of putting jeans on anymore.....

• We are hosting Thanksgiving this year for my side of the fam. I am pretty excited! Brent and I are doing most of the cooking ourselves with a few sides being brought to fill in and I am setting a 'real' table, cloth napkins and all! I just love having family over and feeding people.

• How strange that my last 2 statements had real in parentheses! ha!

• Brent and I went on our date Saturday. We didn't get to go to NWA because we thought Brent was going to have to work so he drove to the location (3 hours away!) and they canceled the job so needless to we didn't get started to early. Luckily Luke's pawpa still was able to watch him so we went to eat and then to see the last Twilight movie. So good! That was the only book of the saga I didn't read so surprised was an understatement! I sure will miss those movies though.        

My outfit for the night, loving this floral scarf!        

• We decided we would start the Elf on the Shelf tradition this year! 'Santa' dropped him on the door step on Sunday so when Lucas woke up from his nap he got him. He named him Chippy of course :)

He was so excited to have his own 'Elf on the Show' his words not mine! ha!

Here is is with Chippy!

Chippy is a welcomed member to our family Lucas has been nothing short of an angel since his arrival and if he starts getting whinny I just have to remind him who is watching ;)

• Got my new Tano on Friday!! I've been waiting on her since September and she is so pretty! I absolutely love these bags and haven't carried anything else in years! My last one I've had for over a year and she still looks so good, they wear so well and are a dream to carry!  So happy Christmas, Valentines, and birthday to me ;)

• Speaking of, Brent's birthday is in 9 days!!!! I pretty much know what I'm going to get him and what cake he is getting so I feel ahead of the game for once this year!

• I have been eating horrible lately! Maybe it's the time of year but I'm not necessarily eating 'holiday' food just lots of bad things. I've had 3 cheeseburgers in 4 days that is nuts!! But I am keeping up with my walking so that might be my only saving grace of these holidays :/

• I won't be getting out for black Friday this year, well I never do! ha!

• We are thinking of doing a Disney cruise this coming year instead of going to one on the theme parks...... still in discussion but I think we are leaning towards doing that. I've been reading a ton of info about it and can't help but to get so excited! I'm honestly not sure who will have more fun me or Lucas! ha!

Fun Friday!

Five Facts about me :)

1. one of my favorite 'bands' is Blink182.
2. I don't own a coffee pot or any coffee making device.
3. the more I read and find out about pregnancy after miscarriage the less I want to even think about 'trying' again.
4. I'm thinking the very best thing about moving away will be coming home and seeing friends and family.
5. I really dislike romantic comedies, I love comedy and romance just not together.

Now tell me 5 things about you!  

Thursday Tidbits

• I don't have many pictures from the week, shame shame.

• Tuesday I had my 'procedure' done where they x-rayed my uterus. It was not fun but I am glad I did it and glad it's over! The radiologist said everything looked perfect! That made it worth it! Of course my doctor will still look it over and I'll see what she says and what we need to do next.

• We are still thinking and talking about moving to Arizona. We kinda thought we wouldn't go a few weeks ago but it might just be to hard to turn down. Of course we have to get many details worked out and thought through. It excites me but terrifies me in the same moment. But at the end of the day we will do what is best for our family.

• I have been walking 4 miles three or four days as week these past few weeks! Going with a friend makes it so much more do-able and I am TWO pounds from my goal weight that I set at the beginning of the year!!! I've tried to make better eating choices too but I have not been strict on myself with that part, exercise really does help!

• Saturday Brent and I are going on a date! I'm very excited I think he was going surprise me but accidentally let it out. ha! He's taking me to Northwest Ar to my favorite place, On the Boarder. We're taking the Mustang and that will be so much fun too, can't wait to see all the pretty fall colors and spend some uninterrupted time with him.  I sure do love him, he is so good sometimes :)

• I can't believe that Thanksgiving is next week!! Wow this year has flown! I will be so happy to start a new year though.

• I had Luke's parent/teacher conference yesterday, and he is doing SO good! He knows so much it amazes me. His teacher had nothing but good things to say about him. This has been a hard year for Lucas at school, he has had to learn what is expected of him at school and he is learning many new life skills such as communication with friends and problem solving. I think he was almost to young to start all this when he did but he has proved he can keep up with the older kids. We are so proud of him

• I still feel like I am in a hard 'season' but my gosh I have so much to be thankful for and happy about. God has truly blessed me beyond measure and even though I can get sad I still want to praise him for his blessings.

A Cat Funny

Ok so you've got to read this story about 'Kristen' the cat, this cat is always causing trouble and/or having to be taken to the vet. I laughed out loud at this one!

And this is exactly why I want a houseful of kids and pets, lots of laughs! Go now and read!

http://lseo.blogspot.com/2012/11/kristen-snaggle-tooth-cat.html

Long Weekend!

We had a fun long weekend :)

Friday night we went to eat dinner at Outback and then to the mall for Luke to get a hair cut. He loves getting his hair 'done' he lets those ladies do what ever they want because he knows if he is good he'll get candy! Here he is with his new do and his candy. After that we looked for Brent a shirt for pictures. Fun fun night with my boys!

Saturday Luke and I got up early and went on our walk, Desiree and I are up to 4 miles and we've been going a ton!

After walking we ate lunch then 'attempted' family pictures, eh the sun was so bright and the wind was awful we didn't know if we got any good shots but here are a few that I like.

We promised Luke if he took good pictures he could play on the the playground he knows that means lots of dirt so he made sure to load up his trucks before we left. This picture is just priceless to me, I laughed when I saw him but it's just perfect :)

After pictures and the playground, Brent got the bright idea to go to the hardware store and bring some dirt home with us so Luke could play in more dirt at home. One part of me wants to be mad because I'll be the one cleaning up said dirt from floors and shoes and clothes but I can't help but love that he wants to do stuff like that for Lucas. Lucas is so blessed with a good daddy, I am so proud.

After an afternoon of dirt playing we went to eat at a little mexican restaurant in town called Las Americas, SO good! I really loved it. Then we went home and I made a grocery list and did all my food shopping at 7:30 on a Saturday night, I really felt like a mom. ha!

The rest of the night Brent and I spent catching up with the DVR and eating cupcakes. While Luke had an early bedtime. Perfection.

Sunday I went walking again and then came home and cleaned house and did laundry all. day. long.

We had some family over for dinner and I got out my 'good' plates, so fun! Lucas got to play late into the night and we all just hung out and watched the last NHRA race.

Monday Brent had to go back to work but I was off so I kept Luke home from school and we had such a fun day! We went to Kohl's, then lunch at Panera, then to the mall real quick and went to a movie. Our first 3D movie to be exact because I got the times wrong! We saw Wreck it Ralph and it was very good, we both really liked it.

Before leaving the house, he looks so big!

Lunch at Panera always includes a cookie.

After the movie we went to the walking trail for our 4 miles! Then home for dinner and bath and getting ready for the week!

That's it! So grateful for a slow weekend.

Menu Monday

I did pretty well with my dinner makings last week! We didn't eat out any during the week except Friday which I knew would happen so I moved that to Sunday. I didn't necessarily stick to the days of the week for which food so I won't assign them like that anymore and that is just fine. So far easy peasy and not spending money though the week when we have food at home has been wonderful!

So on to this week!

Lemon Chicken in the crock pot
Creamy Pasta
Mushroom Tacos
Baked BBQ Chicken and Brussells
Beef and Broccoli in the crock pot

Song for Saturday!

"You Are"
Colton Dixon


When I can't find the words to say how much it hurts


You are the healing in my heart

When all that I can see are broken memories

You are the light that's in the dark



Chorus:

You are the song,

You are the song I'm singing.

You are the air,

You are the air I'm breathing

You are the hope,

You are the hope I needed.

Ohhooohh



You are
And when my circumstance leaves me with empty hands.

You are the provider of my needs.

When all my dirtiness has left me helpless.

You are the rain that washes me.



Chorus: (2x)

You are the song

You are the song I'm singing.

You are the air,

You are the air I'm breathing

You are the hope,

You are the hope I needed.

Ohhhhooohh



(X2) If I had no voice,

If I had no tongue,

I would dance for you like the rising sun.

And when that day comes and I see your face.

I will shout your endless glorious praise.



Chorus: (2x)

You are the song I'm singing.

You are the air,

You are the air I'm breathing

You are the hope,

You are the hope I needed.

 

   

On My Heart

Isn't life so strange. Just when you think you've been handed you all you can handle you get another serving.

I feel like every week I am saying "this has been another hard week", I want a week that is not hard or sad. I am trying my best to get back to normal but I keep hitting road blocks and it is so frustrating! I am not after pity, I just want to remember this season for the good and the bad.

And when I really think about things I feel like I am being silly. I have it so much better than most and I know I am blessed but life can still be hard and I can still grieve.

But I'm not just grieving my babies I am also grieving hopes, memories, and relationships. Because I have changed though this and things aren't the same for me. People and places aren't the same for me.

I am woman of little change. I don't change houses, jobs, grocery stores, friends, anything. But I am changing with all this weather I like it or not; weather others like it or not. I am not the same girl I was at the beginning of this year.

I will forgive those who have hurt me. I will not carry that with me because I will not turn bitter or hard. But forgiveness isn't a one time thing, it is a daily thing. But with Jesus in my corner I can do it after all he is the master of forgiveness.


" He restores what has been broken and heals what has been wounded. I don't have peace because I   figured it all out. I have peace because I believe in Christ."

-a beautiful offering



Tidbits for Thursday!

Seems like lots going on but nothing to share! ha! I guess there's just nothing to exciting.....

• My sweet little brown dog has been right by my side lately, I guess he can tell I am hurting and wants to be close. He really has become such a good dog. This week Lucas was saying "come on buddy" and they would run around the house it was just the cutest thing.Brent said if we go to Arizona we will have to find a new home for Cooper and Chip to make things easier but I honestly doubt I'd be able to do that.....

• O my word this boy! He had us cracking up last night, he comes out with his razorback hat on in his underwear with his marshmallow shooter saying "I'm a bad guy!" Makes me laugh that he thinks all bad guys wear hats. Then Brent really got him going with the cobra tattoo. So funny!!

• Enjoyed some wine last week, I think I finally found the ticket to sleeping when Brent is gone a little wine and I am out like a light!

• Also while Brent was gone Luke slept in momma's bed. Yes he is spoiled and yes I love it :)

• Went to eat at Cheadder's with some family Saturday night, we had fun and ate good!

Other things going on.

• I had my first of (maybe?) many doctors appointments regarding this miscarriage stuff. My doctor was not concerned in the least bit, which is so nice to hear, and she doesn't want to do a bunch of tests she said Luke is the best test of all. I can and will have more healthy beautiful babies she said this just maybe a rough time for my body for some reason. She did want to get an x-ray of my uterus, I go in for that Tuesday. I'm toying with the idea of a blood test to show if my hormones are where they are supposed to be but she thinks that will be a waste of time so I don't know. I still think time will be my best bet for future pregnancies so that is what we want more than anything. I am learning SO much though all this: medical stuff, life stuff, me stuff, people stuff that I know I will be grateful for one day but that still doesn't mean it isn't hard. 

• Even though this is the hardest season of my life I am happy. Not always positive but truly deeply happy. I have said it once and I'll say it again if Lucas is our one and only little I will be just fine, Brent told me the other night he feels the same way, which was oddly nice to hear. He told me to never think I've failed him if we end up being a family of 3, we are blessed. I will never be able to explain how much this year has strengthened our marriage, we are in a place I'd only dreamed of. I may be hurting but I am still so much in love with my life :)

• We are doing family pictures this weekend and I have no clue what any of us will wear yet!

• I went and voted on Tuesday! I've never voted before, in my defense I've only been able to for these last two elections. It was kinda neat voting I felt happy to participate and even though I don't get riled up about those things it's still something I'm glad I did.

• I am very happy for a park date with a dear friend this afternoon. It is so comforting to talk with someone in the same season of life.

That's it! I'm thrilled for my low key three day weekend ahead!

What I'm Wearing Wednesday!

I have NO intention on doing this every week but since I've been taking pictures of my outfits so much lately (I have no idea why?) and I've always wanted to link up with the Pleated Poppy I thought what will it hurt :)

Last week out to dinner with a friend.

My walking attire, I'm proud to say I have been walking for a week now and am so so happy to have that outlet again!

Heading out the door for work today, Brent took this picture and I felt like a big ol dork! I'll have to work with him on his angle or just teach Luke to take em :)

Best part of this picture is those curls! Wowza!

Close up of my new scarf, I love love it! So pretty!

Thats all I got maybe soon I'll have some more, check out the Pleated Poppy for way more fashionable mommas ;)

Direction

I can't believe this is one of the first things I saw this morning. It was on a blog I read and I don't know why I picked hers first even though it wasn't first in my blog role.

After such an emotional afternoon yesterday then waking up with it on my mind and in my heart today.

Is God trying to tell me something else? I am trying to hear him but it's just so hard though all the noise.

I want to go though this being a light for Jesus, I want to come out on the other side to have learned something and to be of support of others that may go though this.

But some days it's just so hard. My feelings get hurt, others don't understand, and it can all just be exhausting.

I have prayed and prayed though this but I have yet to open my bible I will make an effort to search for the direction I am supposed to go.

Menu Monday!

I took the summer off from cooking that is no secret but with the fall season and my new kitchen I am so excited to get in the groove again!

My plan is to get everything planned out and written down on Friday. Recipes of what we are having on which days and my grocery list. Then Sunday I will try and do my grocery shopping but it may have to be done on Monday that will just depend on the week.

Every Monday I will post what we are having for the week.

Sounds fun right?! Ha!

I am also going to try and do healthier meals, I don't want to do 'diet' food but do want to try and cut fat where I can and incorporate much more veggies but still do things that Luke will eat. With the holidays coming up we will have our fair share of junk food so if I can keep our day to day better I want to. Also I want to try at least one crock pot recipe a week and one new recipe a week. And Mondays I want to dedicate 'meatless'.

Ok here it goes......

Monday - Margarita Pizza w/ salad

Tuesday - Turkey Chili w/ lotsa veggies

Wednesday - Pork Loin in the crock pot w/ broccoli

Thursday - Fajitas

Friday - Pepperoni Pasta

Saturday we most likely always have plans to eat else where and sometimes Fridays too. So if we don't eat at home on Friday I will move that meal to Sunday. I'm leaving the weekends very flexible especially around this time of year :)

So thats it! Wish me luck ;)

Halloween 2012

*Halloween Party post will be up sometime next week :)

I've said it so many times but it is so true we had the BEST time on Halloween this year, I'm not sure if I was just really in the moment with all the recent happenings or if it's just Luke's age but it was so much fun!

Luke had a little Halloween party at school, they got to wear their costumes and have a parade around the school. All the kids were very cute!

On our way home we stopped at Sonic for our .50 corndogs! Yum Yum

Our neighborhood goes all out for Halloween its so much fun, I feel very blessed to live in a community like this and I know Luke will have the best time with friends growing up trick or treating here.

Once we got ready we went to our favorite neighbors house, they had a fire out front and lots of chairs roasting hot dogs. We got our picture on the swing, I'm SO glad we did it's the only picture of all three of us.

We went down our street and the street behind us to hit up the cotton candy stand.

Lots of people already out!

Waiting on our cotton candy!

Lucas loved it this year and ate almost the whole thing!

We went to a few more houses before heading home, Luke had half a bucket of candy and that was plenty ;)

A fun little fact, the pumpkin bucket was my old bucket I used it trick or treating every year, it even has my name on the bottom in my little handwriting. I think that is so neat ha!

He was so excited to hand out candy, he would say "we got more visitors" it was so cute!

He would make sure they liked what he was giving them.

"Do you like strawberry"

He was talking to everyone and so polite and told them all "your welcome" when they said Thank you.

He handed out candy 2 hours straight!

Lucas is such a blessing to us. I am finally able to grasp what a precious gift he is and to really appreciate him. I pray that everyone can see their babies as I see mine and even though it took a lot of heartache to get to this point I am thankful for everything. Everyday I am learning to be a better mommy for him and for that I am grateful.

Lucas is so smart and so funny. He has such a witty personality that I just admire I hope nothing ever steals that away from him. His teacher told me just this week that he is a blessing to her and she is really enjoying having him in her class this year. I walked away with tears because I am so proud to be his mom.

I hope you and yours had a great Halloween!

Now on to Thanksgiving and Christmas! Wheeeeee